I don't think there is anything wrong with having more loves than one, and for those loves to be hopes and ambitions instead of people. Love isn't a finite resource, there's always more of it to find.
[ . . . ]
Even so.
Some loves are greater than others, and... I do think that's the case for you both. To determine where your loves align or deviate.
[ softly but firmly, as he once again squeezes hawke's hand ]
I understand the urge but... I do not think you the type of person to take a backseat to your own life. Is this not part of the reason why Anders might be feeling neglected, like you are not fighting for him?
Drink and ale cannot soothe anxieties, only drown them... and you deserve a life better served afloat.
... I think that when you love so dearly, it becomes frightening to take it into your own hands. To make choices and know that you are part of either your own salvation or ruin.
However... letting it pass on without you—that's only going to lead to more regrets, my friend. I can't let you do that to yourself.
... I'm not going to guess what Anders is going to say but... I do hope that everything works out. And if nothing else... I hope you can say without a doubt that you were able to express every last bit of your love.
... you'll have to ask him. He does feel for you. I know that with certainty, but what he feels... I'd hate to put words in his mouth.
[ they truly were going through so much and when anders was telling yves about the breakup letter it really was not the time to get more questions answered,, ]
But I'll hope for your happiness and his. I always will.
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... would you love him enough to stay?
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[ but the knowledge there is Better out there, and adventures no Ferelden will ever see would eat at him and they both know it ]
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But it's not your first inclination.
[ thoughtfully, quietly ]
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No.
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I don't think there is anything wrong with having more loves than one, and for those loves to be hopes and ambitions instead of people. Love isn't a finite resource, there's always more of it to find.
[ . . . ]
Even so.
Some loves are greater than others, and... I do think that's the case for you both. To determine where your loves align or deviate.
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I've only ever wished him to be happy. I know very well how difficult Justice makes it some days but surely it's possible.
[ and quietly, miserably ]
I am so tired of watching him die.
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[ looks at him, eyebrows raised. there's a vague air of have you met the man? ]
He's rather infamous for destroying the chantry even all these years later. The amount of people who still cry for his head on a pike is not small.
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I guess... then it's just whether or not he thinks that same cause is worth dying for. [ and knowing anders, he. does feel like he knows the answer ]
... I'm sorry, Garrett. It sounds like a really tough situation, even love being involved.
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Why do you think I've been drinking so heartily? The less I worry about it the more likely it'll figure itself out without me.
[ IT DOESN'T WORK LIKE THAT BUT OKEI ]
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[ softly but firmly, as he once again squeezes hawke's hand ]
I understand the urge but... I do not think you the type of person to take a backseat to your own life. Is this not part of the reason why Anders might be feeling neglected, like you are not fighting for him?
Drink and ale cannot soothe anxieties, only drown them... and you deserve a life better served afloat.
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Perhaps, I have been running away from more than just Kirkwall.
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However... letting it pass on without you—that's only going to lead to more regrets, my friend. I can't let you do that to yourself.
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Doesn't that sound like experience?
[ that said ]
I suppose it'll all come ahead sooner or later. I've already lost him once, twice almost, surely I can convince him the third time is the charm.
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I think... it can be worth trying, instead of just sitting back and letting your beloved run into the flames of Hades on his own.
[ . . . ]
But at the same time, as hard it is, I hope that whatever comes... you don't blame yourself.
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I'd like to try. I want to try. I simply don't know what to do if he says no.
[ wryly ]
Run off to the stars, I suppose.
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yves will just squeeze his hand gently ]
... I'm not going to guess what Anders is going to say but... I do hope that everything works out. And if nothing else... I hope you can say without a doubt that you were able to express every last bit of your love.
To at least move forward without regrets.
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but bemusedly, ]
With you lot cheering us on? I'd be more surprised if there simply wasn't a group of you hiding in the bushes making sure it happens.
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I do believe in love winning against all.
[ . . . ]
Just as I believe in love bringing the world to ruin, but sometimes that is still the love that I cannot help but cheer on.
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In a place like Thedas, love, especially for mages, feels impossible let alone long lasting.
But if we can make something out of it, even if it's only for some time... Then I'm willing. I can only hope he feels the same.
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... you'll have to ask him. He does feel for you. I know that with certainty, but what he feels... I'd hate to put words in his mouth.
[ they truly were going through so much and when anders was telling yves about the breakup letter it really was not the time to get more questions answered,, ]
But I'll hope for your happiness and his. I always will.
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Maker knows what either of us would have probably done without you and the others.
[ break up for good and never speak again probably ]
You've been a good friend to both of us.
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Well, I do love you both, so that's quite easy.
If I can provide any help, do let me know.
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You mean, as long as we keep you out of the kitchen.
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