there's a lot to talk about. yves will at least loop his arm arounds hawke's so that he stays nearby, reaching with his other hand to go through the alcohol again ]
... let's get some drinks.
[ this is a conversation that sounds like it needs drinks ]
Even if you feel like you can't blame him for it... I think it's okay to admit it hurts. You love him, don't you?
... I do think Anders can struggle when someone isn't in front of him. He only just recently wrote to me too, even though I can tell there was so much more that he wanted to say besides what was on the page.
[ just squeezes hawke's arm reassuringly ]
... do you tell him? That you keep his letters close to you in your armor, so that you might shorten the distance between you the slightest bit.
Perhaps... it is a bit overly romantic and some might call it sappy.
But sometimes... I think words when you least expect them are what heals the heart the most.
No one else can particularly claim hawk feathers as theirs.
But yes, he knows it was me.
[ sighs so wearily ]
He never did answer about what he'd like to do after this was over. I thought about traveling, leaving Thedas to it's current heroes but maker only knows if Anders could leave.
[ in his incredibly important opinion/point in time, the mages have reached a point they can do the rest on their own but we all know anders doesn't see it that way ]
I don't think there is anything wrong with having more loves than one, and for those loves to be hopes and ambitions instead of people. Love isn't a finite resource, there's always more of it to find.
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Even so.
Some loves are greater than others, and... I do think that's the case for you both. To determine where your loves align or deviate.
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Thank you. Adolphe's impossible, but he's mine.
The same way that if either you or Anders got hurt, I think you'd be deserving of apologies too.
[ and why yves will try to get adolphe to say sorry in turn ]
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I can't say I'm very good at them, but between the lot of you I'd like to think I've at least gotten somewhat better.
[ so he hopes ]
Maker only knows if it'll be enough when we reunite with the other later but I suppose we'll find out.
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... I heard he sent you a letter ending things. Is that right...? How're you feeling?
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yves is just out here swinging tonight isn't he.
hawke's expression sure makes an attempt to do something positive but just looks mostly hurt and weary instead ]
I can't blame him for it. The timing of everything simply couldn't have been worse.
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there's a lot to talk about. yves will at least loop his arm arounds hawke's so that he stays nearby, reaching with his other hand to go through the alcohol again ]
... let's get some drinks.
[ this is a conversation that sounds like it needs drinks ]
Even if you feel like you can't blame him for it... I think it's okay to admit it hurts. You love him, don't you?
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anyway, hawke will gladly down the first thing he's given like a shot ]
I thought I did. I think I do. But between our combined history, sometimes I wonder if I'm simply too late.
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yves will at least be careful with his own intake and hawke's it just... feels right to be drinking for this
he will take a seat with him and still hold onto his free hand worryingly ]
What do you mean...? How could you be too late when you're both still here?
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Despite our best efforts, all we do is hurt each other.
There's only so many times you can keep trying before you simply give up.
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Do you really believe that?
[ confused, wondering, from someone who has only thought about the way that love could solve all his problems ]
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He certainly hasn't been receptive to my attempts.
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[ he pulls out the latest one out of his armor, showing
I think if you cared about me, you'd choose to defend me instead of whatever it is you're choosing to do now.
it's not even emotionshare week but the stormcloud over his head is basically visible at this point ]
When haven't I defended him...? I can't be everywhere at once. He knows this.
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... I do think Anders can struggle when someone isn't in front of him. He only just recently wrote to me too, even though I can tell there was so much more that he wanted to say besides what was on the page.
[ just squeezes hawke's arm reassuringly ]
... do you tell him? That you keep his letters close to you in your armor, so that you might shorten the distance between you the slightest bit.
Perhaps... it is a bit overly romantic and some might call it sappy.
But sometimes... I think words when you least expect them are what heals the heart the most.
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[ mages and dreams tend to be questionably bad combos anyway ]
But I haven't...not to any degree since that first week we were separated.
I tried my hand at poetry, you know? Absolutely awful nugshite but I figured it would be a nice gesture.
[ takes a minute to poor and down another shot ]
I don't think he liked it very well.
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[ so funny ]
... we will be seeing him again, at the very least. You should talk about what's going to come after this, for both of you.
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But yes, he knows it was me.
[ sighs so wearily ]
He never did answer about what he'd like to do after this was over. I thought about traveling, leaving Thedas to it's current heroes but maker only knows if Anders could leave.
[ in his incredibly important opinion/point in time, the mages have reached a point they can do the rest on their own but we all know anders doesn't see it that way ]
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... would you love him enough to stay?
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[ but the knowledge there is Better out there, and adventures no Ferelden will ever see would eat at him and they both know it ]
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But it's not your first inclination.
[ thoughtfully, quietly ]
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No.
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I don't think there is anything wrong with having more loves than one, and for those loves to be hopes and ambitions instead of people. Love isn't a finite resource, there's always more of it to find.
[ . . . ]
Even so.
Some loves are greater than others, and... I do think that's the case for you both. To determine where your loves align or deviate.
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I've only ever wished him to be happy. I know very well how difficult Justice makes it some days but surely it's possible.
[ and quietly, miserably ]
I am so tired of watching him die.
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[ looks at him, eyebrows raised. there's a vague air of have you met the man? ]
He's rather infamous for destroying the chantry even all these years later. The amount of people who still cry for his head on a pike is not small.
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I guess... then it's just whether or not he thinks that same cause is worth dying for. [ and knowing anders, he. does feel like he knows the answer ]
... I'm sorry, Garrett. It sounds like a really tough situation, even love being involved.
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